JUST LET ME FREAK OUT A BIT
it’s 7am and i can’t sleep, so why not blog eh?
i’m starting to freak out about moving to MA. well, not necessarily freaking out about the move itself, but more so about the fact that i will be living on $100 a week. even at uni i lived on more than that between various campus jobs and extra loan money i took out. and i didn’t even have to buy all my own food then, i had a cafeteria!! gahhh this is going to be a huge adjustment.
related to that: can i get food stamps in MA? no, really.
i’m about three and a half weeks out from moving and the panic is slowly coming.
what if the people at the new england forestry foundation don’t like me?
what if i can’t find any babysitting gigs to supplement my income?
what if i spend too much on gas and then don’t have enough for food?
what if i forget to defer my student loans in september and then i’m completely and totally screwed?
what if something janky happens with my car and my used-to-be-a-mechanic-i-can-fix-anything father isn’t around to help?
what if i’m not as good at living in community as i thought i was?
what if i don’t remember how to fill out tax forms?
what if i can’t fit everything in my little volvo?
what if i get there and am super stressed and then all my stress-related medical issues start occurring and i totally freak my roommate out?
what if i’m not as prepared for the real world as i thought i was?
i know that, for the most part, everything will be fine. if i have to i’ll live on life cereal and wine and just lose quite a bit of weight by biking everywhere so that i don’t have to spend any money on gas. but i’m hoping it doesn’t come to that. basically, once i move there i feel like i’ll settle into my new life pretty quickly. but for now, as i sit here in ohio not really knowing how things are going to play out, it’s easy to worry and freak out. so, my dear reader, there may be a few more posts like this in the weeks leading up to the big move.
on a less serious note, i think that a few of these issues (namely, my car and food) could be solved by simultaneously dating both a car mechanic and someone who works at a decent restaurant and will give me free food.. bahaha so there’s that.